I Didn’t Talk To Men For Six Months In 2022

It was one of the best things I ever did for myself

Jaye Hannah

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It was the beginning of January 2022. I had just flown back to Los Angeles from my hometown in the rural Midwest after recovering from COVID. I actually got COVID right before New Year’s Eve, so I wasn’t able to celebrate or travel somewhere like I normally do every year. Not that I could afford it anyway. Plus I would’ve had to buy a new party dress because none of my old ones fit me anymore. And even if money wasn’t an issue, I really didn’t feel like doing that.

I spent the holiday watching the ball drop in Times Square on TV while lying in my mom’s bed by myself and drinking a small bottle of Barefoot pink champagne. It was my first time spending New Year’s Eve alone at home since high school, so it felt super lame. Like rock bottom. But I told myself that if I’m starting the new year at rock bottom, the only place I can go is up.

After recovering from COVID, I got my booster vaccine and went to the best local hair salon in my hometown to get my platinum blonde hair touched up for the first time in six months. My mom paid for it as part of my Christmas present. My ashy brown roots had grown in quite a bit, but I justified that it looked fine since my style has always been kind of edgy anyway. I could pull it off, right? But I didn’t really feel like myself.

I arrived back in LA and saw my then-boyfriend for the first time since before Christmas. This was the longest we’d ever gone without seeing each other since we started dating in April. We moved in together within a week of meeting because he was sort of homeless when we met and I wanted to help him. I had just moved into a very nice new apartment with cool new roommates and he was staying in an Airbnb while looking for a place, so I wanted to make his life easier by just letting him live at mine.

He broke up with me that day and told me he was moving into a sober house on February 1. At the beginning of December, he started a treatment program for his alcohol addiction and mental health and he said he wanted to be single while he focused on that.

Although I was sad about losing him, his decision made sense and I was proud of him for wanting to work on himself, so I accepted it. I…

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Jaye Hannah

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